10-16-2006, 12:46 AM
Hey folks. I have a confession to make: I love my fiancee. As cliche as it may sound, along with my beautiful daughter, she is my world. We have been together for three and a half years, and each day that we are together just keeps getting better and better. In all my 29 years, I've never had a love like this, a woman for whom I would do anything without question. My feelings for her are so strong, that sometimes, I find it to be overwhelming if I sit and just think about it for awhile.
Which brings me to my feelings about this song. I have been listening to the Hip religiously since 1994, shortly before DFN came out. Since that time, I can estimate that I've probably listened to each and every one of their songs about 500 times. I've raked over Gord's Lyrics over and over, analyzing, deciphering, breaking them down. We are all aware of how he evokes emotion in us, paints a picture. I have never been personally affected, emotionally, by a Hip song. I love them all, don't get me wrong, but I could only ever sense Gord's emotion. Until now...
The very first time I heard LNIDYDLM, the VERY FIRST TIME...... I cried. Not sobbing, gasping-for-air crying, but a tear coming down each cheek. I start the waterworks during the last few lines of the song, where the emotion in Gord's voice takes a desperate turn, where he screams "YOU didn't love meeeeeeee, why don't ya love me like you used to??!? When you kissed my fingers and you made me love YOU??!"
Wow... even as I type this and imagine the song... I'm welling up. How would I feel if I didn't have my Juliette? (yes, that's her name) Word for word, Gord has it down cold:
"Last night I dreamed, last night I dreamed darkly nurtured dreams
None of them were quite as frightening
oh
Canada emptied, there was me, featureless and freezing
Last night I dreamed you didn’t love me "
Oh, the pain in those lyrics. This is how I would feel if she didn't love me anymore. Empty, alone, featureless and freezing. But then, the last few lines, spooked me because I have personally experienced this, having a dream (nightmare?) that her and I were no longer together, and then waking up in a sweat, breathing hard, and turning quick to make sure she was still there... and there she was, beside me gently breathing:
"Last night I dreamed, last night I dreamed darkly nurtured dreams
None of them, none as frightening,
oh
Awake empty and out of sleep, you were beside me gently breathing
Last night I dreamed you didn’t love me"
My heart aches when I listen to this song, but it only makes me realize that my feeling for this incredible person will never change, and will remain strong forever. Thanks to the band for such a powerful song, and thanks to you all for reading, and for being my outlet. This has been festering inside me for almost a week now, and finally I get it out.
I'm sorry to those of you who feel this was all sap, but I feel comfortable in this community, and I know there are those of you who will appreciate reading something like this.
Cheers, all, and enjoy the album tomorrow.
Rory
Halifax
Which brings me to my feelings about this song. I have been listening to the Hip religiously since 1994, shortly before DFN came out. Since that time, I can estimate that I've probably listened to each and every one of their songs about 500 times. I've raked over Gord's Lyrics over and over, analyzing, deciphering, breaking them down. We are all aware of how he evokes emotion in us, paints a picture. I have never been personally affected, emotionally, by a Hip song. I love them all, don't get me wrong, but I could only ever sense Gord's emotion. Until now...
The very first time I heard LNIDYDLM, the VERY FIRST TIME...... I cried. Not sobbing, gasping-for-air crying, but a tear coming down each cheek. I start the waterworks during the last few lines of the song, where the emotion in Gord's voice takes a desperate turn, where he screams "YOU didn't love meeeeeeee, why don't ya love me like you used to??!? When you kissed my fingers and you made me love YOU??!"
Wow... even as I type this and imagine the song... I'm welling up. How would I feel if I didn't have my Juliette? (yes, that's her name) Word for word, Gord has it down cold:
"Last night I dreamed, last night I dreamed darkly nurtured dreams
None of them were quite as frightening
oh
Canada emptied, there was me, featureless and freezing
Last night I dreamed you didn’t love me "
Oh, the pain in those lyrics. This is how I would feel if she didn't love me anymore. Empty, alone, featureless and freezing. But then, the last few lines, spooked me because I have personally experienced this, having a dream (nightmare?) that her and I were no longer together, and then waking up in a sweat, breathing hard, and turning quick to make sure she was still there... and there she was, beside me gently breathing:
"Last night I dreamed, last night I dreamed darkly nurtured dreams
None of them, none as frightening,
oh
Awake empty and out of sleep, you were beside me gently breathing
Last night I dreamed you didn’t love me"
My heart aches when I listen to this song, but it only makes me realize that my feeling for this incredible person will never change, and will remain strong forever. Thanks to the band for such a powerful song, and thanks to you all for reading, and for being my outlet. This has been festering inside me for almost a week now, and finally I get it out.
I'm sorry to those of you who feel this was all sap, but I feel comfortable in this community, and I know there are those of you who will appreciate reading something like this.
Cheers, all, and enjoy the album tomorrow.
Rory
Halifax
